Changing my job title

I hate my job.  I hate the eight hour grind, the idea of going somewhere and working all day in a profession that is ultimately unsatisfying.  Like most people, I dream.  I envision myself being a best-selling author, of being a house dad while I write.  I work on my novel for a few hours, and then the rest of the day is mine.  Maybe I’ll exercise.  Or go shopping.  Or take a walk in the park.  Or browse the internet or watch TV.  I can do anything I want because I have no obligation to be at a place of employment.  Money is not an issue for us anymore.  We take vacations when we want.  Publishers flock to me for any news on my next Patrick Null novel.  In my imaginings, I’m happy; you can’t keep the smile off my face.

But is that true fulfillment?  Two things happened that made me question my perspective on life.  The first is the sermon I heard at church on Sunday.  The second is a conversation I had with my wife.

We started a new series in Ecclesiastes.  In it, the unknown author, who many attribute it to be Solomon, laments that he has seen and done it all.  This king built houses and planted vineyards, made gardens and parks and pools.  He bought male and female slaves and had many possessions and great wisdom.  Whatever his eyes and heart desired, he did not say no to.

Do you understand what that means?  It means that in today’s time, if you had the money, and said yes to everything you wanted, you’d walk into a car lot and say “I want that car.  And that car.  And that car.  And what the heck, I’ll take that car, too.”  You’d want that house and that
house and that house in Florida for a summer vacation home, and you’d want to buy that house from someone in Paris because you like the house.  Oh, you won’t sell?  I’ll give you three times the price.  Interested now?

This was the life of the author of Ecclesiastes.  He kept himself from no pleasure, no wants.  And even he said everything was meaningless, vanity, a striving after the wind, a quick spritz from a perfume bottle, here one second, gone the next.

Depressing, huh?  That everything we strive after is ultimately worthless?  Know why?  Because true enjoyment can’t be found in Earthly pursuits.  It can only be found in serving God.  “…for apart from him, who can eat or who can have enjoyment?  For to the one who pleases him, God has given wisdom and knowledge and joy…”(Ecclesiastes 2:25b-26a).

True fulfillment is not found in money or power or possessions or hobbies, like wanting to write full time, a dream most writers never realize.  No, it’s all vanity, a striving after the wind, a spraying mist from a water bottle.  True satisfaction is found only in Christ.

Afterwards, I had a talk with my wife.  She told me that when I go to my job, I’m not serving the company but God.  I asked her how am I serving God?  Even then, my confused mind couldn’t grasp the concept.  She told me that I would be serving God by being a witness, to let my light shine forth, to be an influence on people for the gospel.

She’s right.  I can’t be an inspiration if I’m constantly bitter at my predicament, my supposedly assigned station in life.  Maybe God put me there for a reason.

So, I’m changing jobs.  Rather, I’m changing my job title.  Instead of being a meat clerk, I am a missionary cleverly disguised as a meat clerk.  I’m not working for the company any more.  I’m working for God.  Anything else is meaningless.  Now, this doesn’t mean we shouldn’t pursue earthly pleasures.  God wants us to have fun.  What it does mean is that true pleasure can only be found in Christ and anything else shouldn’t be our main focus.  We can get refreshed at the fountain of life.  Amen?

I hope this helps people who might be experiencing what I’m feeling, and all it takes is a simple heart shift.  Change your job title, and you’ll see your perspective change.  I hope you enjoyed reading my ramblings.  I have posted the link below for those of you who want to watch a great sermon on what we just talked about!  God bless, and I’ll see you next week.


8 thoughts on “Changing my job title

  1. What an inspiring post, Patrick. Perspective is everything in life. YOU choose what a balanced, happy life looks like to you. And only you can decide what you’re willing to sacrifice to make all those things happen. As you know, I cared for little children for 14 years before I finally retired in February of this year. Practically every day for the past five years, I wanted to be able to close down and pursue my dream of writing. My husband kept telling me the same thing that your wife told you … I was doing God’s work, and when it was time for me to be done with that, HE would allow me to move on to my next dream. Many days, I didn’t feel the passion for childcare that I did in the beginning, but I still got up every day and opened the door with a smile, and taught those children and loved on them as best I could. I did my best to let them know they were safe and loved, because I knew that’s what God wanted me to do at that time. Every child who came into my care over the past 14 years was there to learn something from me, mostly about life.

    When the time was finally right, God allowed me to close down to be able to help other people through my writing and editing services. HE knew that I didn’t have the clients lined up until that point of time to sustain our household income. HE made sure I had something to fall back on because he knows that having my own career is important to me.

    Your day will come when God is ready to use you in another way. Keep praying, and every day, do ONE thing to move you toward that career choice. Had I not cared for all those children all those years, I would not have been able to authentically write the parenting and children’s books that I did. They were part of my story … my life story. 🙂

    Even though I was home with my own children, I missed that time with them dearly because my focus was on the
    little children. But God knew those little ones needed me for that time in their lives.

    I know this sounds a little bit like a rambling comment, but it’s very heartfelt. I wanted you to know that you’re not alone in feeling this way! And you never know whose life you’re making a difference in.

  2. Thank you, Traci. Well said. I don’t think it’s rambling at all. I appreciated the heartfelt, in depth comment. I’m glad you accomplished your dream, Traci. You deserve it. You’re very good at what you do. I love writing. I had an awesome writing session today. I love writing because it always surprises me. Even though I know everything that is going to happen plot wise, my characters say or do something that come out of left field. To me, there is no better feeling in the world than being a writer, other than being a child of God. 🙂 Thanks again for reading!

  3. The skinny, pregnant teenager who daren’t look you in the eye for shame, the confused old man who can barely push his shopping cart, the fat black woman struggling to stop her three screaming kids from stealing chocolate cookies – they are Jesus in disguise!
    “And the King will say, ‘I tell you the truth, when you did it to one of the least of these my brothers and sisters, you were doing it to me!’” Matthew 25:40

  4. Wonderful post Patrick. You hit the nail on the head. Love your writings. Have you thought of becoming a minister? I believe you would be a great one!

    1. He he he, thanks for the encouragement, but I have a looooonnnnggggg way to go before I could even think of going down that road, in my spiritual walk, that it. Besides that, I hate speaking in front of a large group of people. 🙂 I’m a much better writer than a speaker. Thanks for the read and the great comment!

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